A month since my last post and it brings tears to my eyes to read it. Time has just continued to carry on and we are running so quickly to not get left in the dust. Ryder is now in Kindergarten, so excited to learn. Kinsley is in dance and loving it every time, she is such a little performer. She is just like her dad after a few beers!
A friend of mine that I have recently reconnected with after her mom's cancer battle and my family's loss posted on Facebook last night a very heart felt message and part of that message said, her mom was the one that "taught her that sitting on the floor reading a book to your kids is more important than laundry." Of course that hit me hard since my kids see their daycare lady more than they see me. That is my fault, I chose this path, to work outside the home, I truly believe that is what I was meant to do. It is a choice that stabs me every once in a while. And as they grow bigger and faster it stabs a little more often and a little harder. Am I missing out? I don't know, I used to know. I also read an article about a mom that realized how often she told her kids to "hurry." Now I catch myself several times a day during the 3 or 4 hours I see them, rushing them out the door, get your shoes on, get your teeth brushed, get buckled, hurry we have to go.
Times have changed since I was young. I can't say they have changed for the better or the worse.
Breathing deeply and slowly seems like a luxury sometimes. A small vacation between phone calls.
Priorities.
Thursday, September 17, 2015
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
Loss
2015 has been a year to remember so far. We started the year by losing our beloved dog of 12 years, Zoey. Really we were so blessed to have her for 12 years, her breed is only supposed to live 8 to 10 years, but still that did not make the loss hurt any less.
Oh yes, then the weather, what in the world was I doing in my garden in February and March? Don't really know, but it was wonderful! But then I worried about the grass and water for the cows for the summer.....and then the rain came. It rained and rained and the grass grew and grew. I have never seen anything like the grass on the range in May and June. It was well past your waist in some spots, there was even grass over my dad's head at Miner Creek and water, there has been water all summer. Cooler temperatures, what a blessing, I don't really care for temperatures over about 70 or 75 anyways!
Should I mention the high cattle market and the low hay prices? This is a double edged sword in my world, because I work with a lot of area farmers, they struggled with all the rain and lower temperatures. In agriculture one crop has to suffer for another to do well, that is the cycle and the cold, hard reality.
Our niece, has had a turbulent summer. I often wonder why things happen and what lessons are to be learned. The turbulence from her life and spilled over in to everyone that love's her life as well, supporting and standing strong for her to keep her spirits high.
And then our sudden loss of Bill. There are no words to describe the confusion felt by his passing. I find myself consoling my son, but how hard it is to explain something that you don't even begin to understand yourself.
And now we have welcomed our new puppy, Mesa. An eight week old bull mastiff! She is exhausting and kind of like having a newborn around except with no diaper! She is so much fun and the kids adore her. She was meant to come in to our lives as a ray of sunshine and happiness.
There's a song that says, "the world didn't stop for my broken heart," never have those words made so much sense as they do now at this point in 2015. I look forward to the last 5 months of 2015, maybe with a little hesitation. There is so much to be thankful for, we just can't dwell on those things that we aren't thankful for that have made us the maddest, saddest and unhappiest, life does go on. I have a quote in my kitchen my mom gave me a few years back:
Oh yes, then the weather, what in the world was I doing in my garden in February and March? Don't really know, but it was wonderful! But then I worried about the grass and water for the cows for the summer.....and then the rain came. It rained and rained and the grass grew and grew. I have never seen anything like the grass on the range in May and June. It was well past your waist in some spots, there was even grass over my dad's head at Miner Creek and water, there has been water all summer. Cooler temperatures, what a blessing, I don't really care for temperatures over about 70 or 75 anyways!
Should I mention the high cattle market and the low hay prices? This is a double edged sword in my world, because I work with a lot of area farmers, they struggled with all the rain and lower temperatures. In agriculture one crop has to suffer for another to do well, that is the cycle and the cold, hard reality.
Our niece, has had a turbulent summer. I often wonder why things happen and what lessons are to be learned. The turbulence from her life and spilled over in to everyone that love's her life as well, supporting and standing strong for her to keep her spirits high.
And then our sudden loss of Bill. There are no words to describe the confusion felt by his passing. I find myself consoling my son, but how hard it is to explain something that you don't even begin to understand yourself.
And now we have welcomed our new puppy, Mesa. An eight week old bull mastiff! She is exhausting and kind of like having a newborn around except with no diaper! She is so much fun and the kids adore her. She was meant to come in to our lives as a ray of sunshine and happiness.
There's a song that says, "the world didn't stop for my broken heart," never have those words made so much sense as they do now at this point in 2015. I look forward to the last 5 months of 2015, maybe with a little hesitation. There is so much to be thankful for, we just can't dwell on those things that we aren't thankful for that have made us the maddest, saddest and unhappiest, life does go on. I have a quote in my kitchen my mom gave me a few years back:
"Happiness is a Choice."
I choose to be happy. I choose to love life and be thankful for all those around me. I choose to hold my family close. I choose to work hard but live my life. I choose to be happy.
Thursday, January 15, 2015
December!
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| We went to Las Vegas for a week and had an awesome time. Took the kids to see tons of stuff, shopped, went to the rodeo and hung out. |
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| Kinsley in her Christmas dress and cowgirl boots. Grandma Kathy gets all the granddaughters Christmas dresses. Kinsley basically lived in hers for a week before and after Christmas. Can you believe how big she is getting? |
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| Santa Claus made a special appearance at our house to bring Ryder a new "turtle blanket" and Kinsley a pair of dress shoes. Ryder's Aunt Tiffany and cousins made him a turtle blanket when he was born and he has packed it around since then. He left it in a motel room in Salt Lake and we were not able to get it back. Somehow Santa knew all about it and had an identical one made, just a little bit bigger! It seems to have the same stitching and homemade touch Aunt Tiffany's did! Thanks to that tall, blonde'ish elf for making Ryder's Christmas! |
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| Then we have Todd showing Kinsley the correct way to shoot her "Brave" bow and arrow in grandma Kathy's house and boy does it fly and stick to everything!! |
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| This is what I feel like most days about 5 pm! |
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| Wade and Ryder watching the buckin' bull sale in Vegas, love this picture - two peas in a pod! |
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| If you look really closely at the center of the photo there are two big black cowboy hats cheering on their favorite Nascar!! We had a great Christmas. Lots of fun in Vegas. We are excited to start a brand new year and see what it has in store for us. I try to post some words that describe the last year, and there is usually a lot of them. So here's to 2014, goodbye, farewell and Welcome 2015, we are ready: Cattle business Growth Promotion Health Good Loss Endings Beginnings Rain Commitment Crafts Derbies Friends Enemies Activities Oh, I could be here all day, better get going. In short, it was an eventful year. Take care. Best wishes to all. What a great start to 2015, there are only better things to come. "Don't let a bump in the road, be the end to your journey." |
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